It occurred to me earlier today that this date, March 20, is a bittersweet anniversary for me.
That’s because it’s the second anniversary of my resigning as conductor from CSX Transportation, on a day when I was originally scheduled to have an investigation regarding an operating rules infraction.
I did so partly because I wanted to “save face,” as I put it, with respect to my railroad career, a point I made to my boss in my exit interview. When I mentioned that, he nodded in agreement, adding that he’d known me since I first set foot on the property, and that he was saddened by my decision. Furthermore, I had not been happy there for some time.
Yet my timing couldn’t have been worse: it was just before the economy fell apart, and that I left the employ of a good-paying job of eight years without another one already lined up. Talk about doing dumb things!
CSX was significant because I’d worked there for eight years, and that they were the first railroad for whom I worked. However, I view my departure as temporary in nature: my experience will surely work in my favor when I apply to other carriers, and I will land on my feet. It may take longer than I expect, but hopefully not too long!
In some ways, I was relieved I’d resigned, yet at the same time, saddened at the departure. It meant leaving the comfort of good money and what it provides.
“Time heals all wounds,” goes the saying, and I realize that it applies to me as well. As the days pass, the pain arising from that decision will eventually fade, hopefully in the not-too-distant future as I land another job and move forward.
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